Enter An Aspring Writer On Constant Writer's Block

attharun @ 2009-11-19T12:09:00

2009-11-19T04:59:10Z

A new school, a new college course, a new place... a new life, so to speak. But not a new blog, of course. Despite being seemingly dead in LJ, I will be forever loyal. (Livejournal preacher/fanatic mode, much?)

Back to my new life, then, eh? XD

There are lots of times I miss Cebu and everything - and everyone - in it. The traffic, the sprawling buildings, the atmosphere in general that beckons to you and tells you, "This is home. Even with all its flaws, this is where you belong."

But that's not to say I don't like where I am today. I actually consider Davao as an escape, a place where I can be whoever I want to. Here I was not obliged to take a course I didn't have an affinity for; here, I actually looked forward to academic difficulties.

Although there are times I yearn for my old life - the parties, the night life, the sleepovers, the hectic schedules - I probably wouldn't trade it for what I have now. It's still flawed, of course, but what life isn't?

One thing's for sure, I'm looking forward to what this new, not-so-foreign place has to offer.

Like our school's virtual library. LOL.

After three days of painful video streaming...

2009-06-12T04:13:51Z

At 2 something-or-other in the morning, I finally, FINALLY set eyes on the Macross Frontier finale. And my thoughts on the entire series? LOTS.

Spoilers coming your way. YOU HAVE SO BEEN WARNED.

So at first I may have found Sheryl to be too much of a showbiz person, incredibly arrogant when she says, "I'm Sheryl Nome"; but I was constantly reasurred by a certain someone through YM that she was not all that bad. As for Alto, well, I could imagine him in women's clothing the second he made his appearance - Alto-hime, as his friend and fellow SMS pilot Michel always teased. And speaking of Michel... the playboy with a past, whose reason for his playboy-ness was not so far-fetched an idea. (Episode 21 was so sad...) I found Luca so cute and kid-looking with his "blush ons" that would magically disappear when he was wearing his helmet and flying his VF. XD Well, I could go on about all the other characters but that would take ages, and I have a cut-off on my computer usage...

If you've been reading thus far, again, a warning. POSSIBLE NEGATIVE ~~RANKA BASHING~~ REMARKS ABOUT RANKA LEE. Just my opinion though, don't want any squabbles.

Yes, Ranka during the first few episodes was bearable, even with that annoying shade of green for hair (I say bearable because I've always NOT liked green, for some reason.) and her overplayed "Aimo". She was a good kid who looked younger than she actually was... before she was skyrocketed to fame. Fame made her think certain things that used to be beyond her reach could easily be obtained. Which was true in some ways, but not in others *coughSaotomeAlto'slovecough*. But seriously, when Frontier was in turmoil and Vajra were everywhere, she refused to sing... And why? Because she saw Alto and Sheryl hugging. Because, boo-hoo, she was heartbroken. SERIOUSLY. Would it have taken so much effort to push away the feelings for a moment? People's hearts get broken all the damn time, and she treats hers like it's the only problem in the entire galaxy. THEN she runs off to the Vajra homeworld to return Ai-kun who, by the way, unleashed all the Vajra inside Frontier. Smart keeping him, huh? XD

Withholding all the other things she did or did not do to plunge humanity into chaos, I found Ranka useful only in the final episode when she and Sheryl sang together (geez, I love Diamond Crevasse among all other songs... XD) and led to the destruction of Grace the "queen".

As for who ends up with who... Although the series ended with a draw, Sheryl wins hands down, definitely. Three kiss scenes (and one bed scene(??)). Need I say more? :p Besides, even if the AltoSheryl ship would look like yuri (Gee Alto WHY do you have to be so pretty?), Alto would look like a total pedophile with Ranka!

So, yes, because of steshin 's constant virtual poking, I watched Macross Frontier... and absolutely fell in love with it. I'd been looking for something different from the Gundam-stereotyped mech animes.

AND THIS IS IT. :D

Frigid.

2009-03-22T12:50:06Z

I'd transferred to my sixth school when I met her. She was from the other class, and I was not the sociable type (well at least not as sociable as today), so I didn't really have much to do with her. I was in my sophomore year; the new student, the one who found it excruciatingly difficult to fit in. She was a member of a popular clique - one that nobody would dare oppose unless social suicide was on his/her agenda.

It wasn't until late into our senior year - when we'd become classmates - that I actually got to see past the intimidating facade, the no-nonsense I'm-gonna-kick-your-ass-th

e-minute-you-mess-with-me aura. Past all of that was a girl living a life with its own share of problems, a girl tied to her group of friends that didn't really live up to the purpose. By the end of high school, she had become one of my most treasured friends.

But then, of course, college came to part our ways, but we'd sworn only that would change. Not the friendship, not the memories.

After several busy months of school we saw each other again, but that time she seemed so difficult to reach. We only made minimal conversation; she was always hanging around with her boyfriend. She made sordid remarks from time to time... It made me remember our early high school days, back when I told myself we probably would never go beyond that of being acquaintances.

Since then I'd been racking my brain, wondering what I could have possibly done (or not done) that would explain her cold treatment.

The only fault I found with myself was failing to keep in touch. But I could hardly be blamed for that - worrying about my hanging grades in the three most grueling subjects of first year was tiring enough as it was.

If that's what her issue is, then I guess I can't do much about it.

Such Are The Ways of The Audi-holic.

2009-03-12T17:39:17Z

What do you do the night before a major exam on the urinary system and body acid-base balance? You might want to A. Cram for all it's worth; B. Sleep it off and hope you can get some studying tomorrow; C. Not acknowledge the existence of such an absurd exam.

My choice? D. Play Audition. :))

Audi made me break my strict no-more-online-games rule, and I've no idea whether it's a good thing or not.

On another note... I actually updated this journal. Which is a shock, considering I don't have the luxury of free time anymore (Well if I did I'd usually be facebook-ing, but heck, I miss LJ.).

More notes.

Everyone's excited about the end of classes; normally I would be, too. But the keywords that burst my happy bubble? SUMMER CLASSES. More keywords: Physics. Biostatistics. Then I died of nosebleed just imagining what that would be like. But ended up rising from the dead to study for Anaphy.

Within the month I fainted for the first time in my life, got injected on both my arm and hip area five days later, and felt the full force of the "last minute rush" - when even our meager free periods were used for practical tests in NCM 100. Hence the injection and the fainting. XD

Oh, and I forever curse my midterm grade in Anaphy. 3.03. It was then that I realized the importance of decimals.

And in the middle of all that, something in the love aspect actually went out of its way to squeeze into my ever-hectic, virtually-no-time-to-sleep schedule. ~~Screw him.~~

Ever heard of a plot (this is usually in pocket novels and/or chick flicks) where a guy who likes a girl asks her friend for advice and they end up falling for each other instead? Yeah, I'm sure you can do the math. :)

Back to my hectic, virtually-no-time-to-sleep schedule, then.

Long exams in Anatomy and Physiology and English later this afternoon. Tomorrow morning at 8, Biochemistry Lab. practicals. And on Monday hell week officially starts.

What a gloomy entry. XD Well, it's two in the morning.

Anaphy = All-Nighters... EVERY night.

2008-11-15T11:18:50Z

And yet I get a six in a twenty-one item test.

I've NOTHING to say to that, though.

Moving on.

Twilight movie... does it show on the 21st or on the 26th? Either way, I am NOT gonna watch on the first day. My recently discovered claustrophobia might disorient me; not to mention the obvious lack of space there will be at the Onstage cinema in Ayala. Ugh.

Recently, I bought a BP (blood pressure) set for php1,088. I could have bought clothes, earrings and other useless whatnot that would have made me happier, but my practicality just HAD to kick in. :((

Did I mention that that day was a mallwide sale day? I guess I just did.

Cold Saturday yesterday.

2008-11-09T03:36:22Z

And I mean that both literally and otherwise.

From being depressed about my questionable life to getting a good scolding for being out too late without permission... yeah, that was pretty much how the day went.

Today is Sunday. Tomorrow is Monday, an insane day where we have tests in three majors. Ana. Physio., NCM 100 and Biochem.

Even more insane is the fact that I haven't studied a single one.

Oh well, it's time for my "winging it" instincts to kick in. :D

On another note... Twilight shows on November 26 in the Philippines?! WHAT?! Noooooo! That's 5 days later than some other places! :(

Procrastination Galore

2008-11-01T18:14:29Z

I am putting off getting ready for school, because I refuse to believe it is less than twenty-four hours away. :((

My last post of the sem. break. And possibly the last post for quite a long time.

Oh, well, I might catch the Twilight movie before I post again. XD

ENROLLMENT FOR SECOND SEM.

2008-10-29T13:59:15Z

Oh joy.

Note the sarcasm.

Human Anatomy and Physiology, here I come. I can see the failing grade of 5.0 already. T.T

Sem. Break: Too Good To Last

2008-10-29T06:52:03Z

Mm- hmm. It's, what, Wednesday? Which means I have four days. FOUR days! T.T

And the fact that a certain university in Cebu starts their classes on the tenth pisses me off to no end. It's not faaaaaaaair!

Oh well.

I feel like a total... uh... late-person... yeah... for having just discovered the Twilight series because of the upcoming movie. Geez, where was I the past three years?

Oh, right. Reading Animorphs and Artemis Fowl. LOL. XD

Anyway, I feel like putting in some BG music here for a bit. Sooo... yeah.

attharun @ 2008-10-25T00:00:00

2008-10-24T16:17:42Z

It's pretty amazing how much uneventful-ness has passed the last few weeks. Which explains the scant updating of this journal. Oh well.

Looking back at the darn list I made two entries ago, I was actually able to get around reading the Twilight series. Thank College for the long-ish semestral breaks. :D I just have to read Breaking Dawn and... yeah. ~~Aaaaand my boyfriend actually bought me a hardbound Twilight book, after waiting quite a while reserving at the book store.~~

And the good news for me, so far, is that I know I haven't failed in any subject. (I passed TFN! O.O) Buuuuut... I still have Chemistry Lab. and Lec. to worry about. I did horribly at the moving test. T.T

I don't intend on shifting courses... yet.

Hell starts... tomorrow

2008-10-03T14:58:27Z

Final exams, actually. Same difference.

Chem. Lab. and PE. Both practicals tomorrow.

CWTS out-of-school activity on Sunday. And I just had to be head of the Documentation committee. Oh. JOY. Will have to make a softbound to give to the dean of CAS.

And next week is officially hell week. I do not even know if I can participate in that week, since my tuition isn't fully paid yet.

Oh well. I have a party to look forward to tomorrow, at least. :D

Sweeping Up the Cobwebs in My LJ... Figuratively Speaking :D

2008-09-26T14:12:54Z

I simply cannot get used to the fact that college eats up even my much-needed internet time. I can't watch Bleach as much as I would have last year, for crying out loud.

Nursing isn't quite as grueling (yet) as I'd imagined, after all. My opinion on the matter is bound to change in a heartbeat next week, though, with final exams coming up starting on October 4. Chem. Lab. and PE. practicals. Oh joy.

~~Makes me glad I thought twice about joining the school publication.~~ I barely have time to sleep anymore.

For me, a short list of pending things to do, then, just for the heck of it:

1. Start studying for the long test in Chem. Lab., Chem. Lec., and English. Yes, English.

2. Buy wire gauze, deadline: Monday.

3. Written report in Chem. Lab., deadline: Monday.

4. Psychology report. Assign topics to group mates tomorrow. (Yeah we have Saturday classes. CWTS. T.T)

5. Watch Bleach, then Death Note. (This is gonna be quite long, as I still have a ways to go, from Bleach episode 116 till 188.)

6. Read Twilight and its sequels. ~~I feel like I'm the only person who hasn't done that. Geesh.~~

7. Get some sleep, as tomorrow I have to be up by around 5:15 for our 7 am class, doing clean-up duty. Future nurses cleaning up streets. That should be a sight.

I'm sure I won't ever get around to following number 7. XD

Most Probably...

2008-04-29T16:10:42Z

...my last post on LJ before I leave for Cebu on the second of May. Well, it was supposed to be yesterday, but my dad rescheduled or something.

...I am gonna be extremely bored when I get back home, because there isn't a computer in our place.

...I'm gonna faint when I take the physical exam in Velez College. I have blood issues. 'Nuff said.

Well, the fact that I have some friends waiting for me in Cebu provides some consolation, at least.

=D

attharun @ 2008-04-22T22:07:00

2008-04-22T14:17:45Z

Well, me and my brother are gonna fly back to Cebu on the 29th. Without our parents.

Gee, that should be fun.

But of course I'm not posting just to say that.

By watching the movie First Knight, I suddenly got motivated to write a story about Arthur, Lancelot and Guinevere. Same names, completely different people, and completely different time line.

That's gonna be when I get home though.

I was supposed to continue my other story, but my notebook got lost in school somewhere. It's probably being recycled in a recycler now. T__T

Oh well.

attharun @ 2008-04-09T15:55:00

2008-04-09T07:59:54Z

Okay, I take back what I said before.

MY IQ IS adequate enough to pass Velez. Hah!

How kickass.

Ah, The City of Golden Friendship.

2008-04-08T11:09:08Z

No exact dates yet, but I'll most definitely be heading there some time soon. And I'm expecting a huge feast-slash-party-slash-food filled gathering when I get there.

Yes, steshin, I am coming to CDO. XDDD

attharun @ 2008-03-08T16:35:00

2008-03-08T08:42:25Z

Yes, I know my IQ is probably too inadequate to pass Velez. But it still hurts my ego.

On another note, though...

I've resurrected from my posting hiatus. Whoopee... :p

attharun @ 2007-08-18T20:34:00

2007-08-18T12:44:50Z

Gee, I really have to go to LJ more often. >_<

Well, haven't really been feeling like it though. I don't know. I guess it's one of those days when the thought of slashing my wrist crosses my mind.

Okay, so unless anyone's prepared for moderate-to-extreme-emo-ness, then read on, by all means.

It's kind of disturbing, but everytime my mother rants at me for something I did or didn't do, I'd think her life would probably be better if I was gone. Less mouths to feed, and one less tuition to pay.

And if I did die, who'd come to my funeral?

Would the people who didn't give a damn about me care, even for just a second?

Would I go to purgatory or straight to hell?

Questions I have no plan of answering, thanks very much.

And I remember when I talked to you 'bout this matter back when it was your problem, steshin. Turns out I can never seem to follow my own advice. -_____-

attharun @ 2007-07-28T16:51:00

2007-07-28T08:55:30Z

I am desperately in need of help right now.

Does anyone know any good mp3 sites?... I can never seem to find the music I want. -_-

I'd REEEEALLY appreciate it.

--,

Felix Felicis?...

2007-07-15T07:41:42Z

In one week, three good things happened to me.

Monday my aunt gave me an ipod nano when she came from Hongkong last week. And I was like, "Whaaaaaat?!" Well, in a surprised and happy way of course.

Friday (the 13th... how ironic...) we drew lots on who would perform our talumpati thing that day, and I didn't get the marked paper, which meant I'd do it Monday. (Well it's better than nothing...)

And today we were at the mall and my old, getting-busted Motorola phone fell and dismantled like it always did. My aunt probably felt sorry for me, so she kinda dragged me to the cellphone store and bought me a new one.

Which is probably the end of my lucky streak, because next week is so gonna be hectic.

Maybe someone chucked a week's worth of that lucky potion from Harry Potter in my Swiss Miss or something...

LOL.

attharun @ 2007-07-08T13:55:00

2007-07-08T06:00:55Z

Well aside from getting scolded by the principal in a so un-principal-like way during our first Friday mass, nothing much happened to me this week.

But I learned the value of thrift the very hard way: My six hundred bucks suddenly got reduced to forty when me and my friends went to the mall yesterday to watch Transformers.

All my savings for my new phone went down the drain in one day. Even I couldn't believe it.

T_T

Oh well...

attharun @ 2007-07-01T11:48:00

2007-07-01T03:54:14Z

Friday we had tests on every afternoon subject. And I think it was only Computer that I had a super decent score. Don't even get me started on how my Filipino test went.

Can't say TGIF, can I?

-_-

attharun @ 2007-06-23T14:28:00

2007-06-23T06:24:12Z

I hate

How easily you could make me laugh

And make me cry;

How you could make me want to live, and at the same time

Make me want to die.

Just a stupid apostrophe I worte for English class.

A stupid apostophe that my teacher had to make a big deal out of.

Anyway.

I have to draw a character in El Fili for Filipino. Maybe I'll draw that Chinese guy who reminds me of Won from Harvest Moon 2. LOL.

And, oh, to answer any possible quesitons, yeah, I think I can relate to my apostrophe right now. But I really didn't feel that way at the time when I actually wrote it.

Call it coincidence or whatever, if you want.

attharun @ 2007-06-16T18:29:00

2007-06-16T10:40:17Z

Yes, I'm alive. Kinda.

I actually liked my first day, as opposed to the last two years I'd been in SFAS.

Yeah, big surprise there.

What I didn't like was my ex taking advantage of the fact that he lives next door. AND that my mom likes him 'cause he's a good guy or whatever...

Geez...

But other than that, school's kinda great. Well, maybe except for the homework, projects and the usual crap. Plus the NCAE on August. Tch.

They say if you don't get a good score in it, you can't choose a four-year course in College.

Riiiight.

attharun @ 2007-06-01T22:14:00

2007-06-01T14:37:33Z

Well, we're moving to our new place tomorrow, depending on what time my mom gets here from her two-week trip from the mountains (it's sort of a requirement for her course or something).

Things are probably gonna get busy once school starts. Let the horror of being a fourth year student begin if it must.

Hmm... I wonder why I feel like I can't do anything productive all of a sudden...